How to say goodbye?

It’s almost my due date…

It’s weird preparing for next Sunday. I try imaging what my life would be like right now if I were a few days away from having our Warrior. We probably wouldn’t be living in our new house. I definitely wouldn’t be at my new job, nor would Dan be at his. We might not even still be in Connecticut. Our life would have been so very different if we were having that baby. Our life is so very different because we are not.

I’m struggling with how to acknowledge what should be on the 20th, while accepting what is and hoping for what might be. The thing is-I don’t want to be sad…I’ve already spent a lot of time being sad and I’ve been really optimistic lately, I’ve truly started to embrace cycle 2, but our Warriors due date feels like the end of cycle 1…and I think I need to acknowledge it. But how?

I think I’m looking for a way to say goodbye to our Warrior…I think I’m looking for a way to say goodbye on the day I had planned on saying hello…

I just don’t know how.

Advice would be appreciated.


3 thoughts on “How to say goodbye?

  1. Nara says:

    I’m sorry. I thought I was fine at my due date but I had a mini breakdown as it happens. I don’t think I ever said goodbye. I just thought a lot, and hibernated a bit. Thinking of you. X


  2. Ss8336 says:

    Cant give any good advice but the day needs to be remembered. If you need to cry all day do but then start thinking of what llies ahead. You will never forget. It will be a piece of your heart forever. Hugs to both of you Aunt Shirley


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